A Hint of A Memory

It's funny how you see something, rather on TV or just for a drive and it brings back a memory. I got home from work today and sat down to relax. I see the Golden Gate Bridge on the TV and my mind begins to roll back thru my long list of memories. Being in San Francisco and seeing it in person, walking thru the streets, and seeing the box cars that are part of the city's famous landscape.

Why do I bring this up??? I like to reflect a lot. On what I have done and where I have been. I'm not blinded from the mistakes that I've made, nor glorifying the great things I have accomplished. All this life has shown me so far is that without turmoil, one can never truly appreciate triumph. Why did we make the decisions that we made. Looking back knowing how wrong they were, yet not able to see it when the time comes. Our internal make up , what makes us tick, is forged from our parents, and other outside influences.

See how one memory makes you start thinking about 100 different things. I can't help it. I try to tell people, that my mind runs 90 mph, and it goes all over the map. I feel that I am a smart and calculated person. I like to plan what I am going to say, just to avoid the off chance of saying the wrong thing. Why do this?? Because different people will take things different ways and what is funny to one, will be offended by others. Some people think it makes me sound non-genuine, but I disagree. I am myself, and live an open book kind of life. I will share my life and my stories to anyone who asks. I just know that this world is full of sensitive people, and you have to be careful about what you say.

I really don't have an ending for this post today, it was just some random thoughts that popped up. Maybe someone will read this and understand me a little better. All I know is that I am living my life the best way I know how, and that's all that matters

C

Big Changes!!!!

For starters, I just can't believe I quite writing. Seems like it's been forever and since I can see the date of my last post, It has been over 2 years. There is so much that has happened, but who wants to hear about all of that. I will, at the very least, explain what all these big changes were. For starters, I am now single again. I've been divorced for almost 2 years now. Crazy as it sounds, sometimes you just have to walk away to truly see that you are much better off.

With all the changes of getting out of the Marines and getting married, I had lost myself. I quit doing all the things that made me feel whole. Now that I am by myself, I can focus on the things that fill that void. Nothing can ever give me the time I have missed with the kids. I miss them every single day. Taking them to their mom's house after a weekend, can sure make me sad, but its all I can do.

My new approach to this blog will be focusing on the struggles and triumphs of being a single dad, and what things we can all learn from it. I hope to also bring some funny stories of day to day life as I try to navigate thru this crazy dating world. What is it like trying to date in your 30's?? We will find out. How do you handle dating with the kids, and when is it the right time for them to meet someone? These are all questions I have to figure out, and hope its the right one.

For those who may be worried about me..... Fear not!!  I am alive and well, loving and living. I am making my own little dent on this world, and I won't stop. So you better hitch on this ride, cause we are only going up from here.

More to come in the near future.  Also check out my other blog as it goes thru my trek back to fitness paradise and an overall healthier lifestyle

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C